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Try Reading The Below....LAYAKKAH AKU MENJADI SEORANG PENULIS????

Wed, 20 Dec 2006 03:05:32 GMT

Segala yang berlaku pada tika ini akan kusemadikan ia menjadi suatu kenangan disudut lubuk hatiku. Akan kukenang segalanya biar seperit mana. Aku pinta kepadamu maafkanlah kesilapanku, aku tahu kau dan aku tidak mungkin akan menyatu. Kau hanya sebuah kepulauan nan indah yang telah kusinggah dalam perjalanan hidup ini. Kau membuka sejuta rahsia kepadaku dan aku tahu, ia tidak semudah itu aku melupakanmu.

Andai, tersilap langkahku kelak, maafkanlah..hatiku ini tak bisa terubat hanya dengan ungkapan maaf dari mu. Aku bukanlah wanita yang kejam, namun aku punya hati dan perasaan, aku tak bisa kaburi jiwaku kerana perasaan yang kecewa ini.

Kau telah membawaku pergi jauh dari kedukaan semalam. Setiap bicara manismu bagaikan selumbar bisa...kau tanam dijiwa, tak terlihat oleh pandangan mataku. Aku kesal dengan segala yang berlaku.

Mungkin kau hanya mahu yang satu itu dariku..namun, pendirianku tetap berdiri disisiku. Andai aku hanyut dalam badai asmara cinta dongengmu, aku mungkin lebih parah.

Segala yang telah kuberikan kepadamu datang dari hati ikhlasku. Setiap pelukan yang kuhadiahkan kepadamu ikhlas dari hatiku yang merinduimu..setiap kucupan yang kuhulurkan kepada bibirmu datang dari perasaan kasihku kepadamu..namun segalanya telah tiada lagi..

Aku pergi...seperti yang kau mahu, sayang..aku pergi..

Namun persinggahanku selama itu, adalah persinggahan yang terlalu istimewa bagiku..

My Promise To You!

Fri, 15 Dec 2006 07:07:11 GMT

I cannot promise you that

I will not change

I cannot promise you that

I will not have many different moods

I cannot promise you that

I will not hurt your feelings sometimes

I cannot promise you that

I will not be erratic

I cannot promise you that

I will always be strong

I cannot promise you that

my faults will not show

But

I do promise you that

I will always be supportive of you

I do promise you that

I will share all my thoughts

and feelings with you

I do promise you that

I will give you freedom to be yourself

I do promise you that

I will understand everything that you do

I do promise you that

I will be completely honest with you

I do promise you that

I will laugh and cry with you

I do promise you that

I will help you achieve all your goals

But

most of all

I do promise you that

I will love you

SaLaM SayaNg BuaTMu YaNg SeDaNg KuSaYaNg..

Wed, 29 Nov 2006 03:55:46 GMT

I wrote this "sajak" on the 23rd of September 2006. I was so deep in ... at that moment. Everything was so hot.

Salam Sayang buatmu yang sedang kusayang,

Dikala ini terasa kosong jiwa tanpa hadirnya dirimu disisi,

Aku merindui bualan asmara kala naluri merindui,

Keluhan keringat sakti meronta dijiwa sanubari,

Aku tahu aku siapa,

Aku tahu kau siapa..kau yang bergelar apa..

Aku pasrah, aku akur..

Segala yang mendatang ini suatu ujian yang harus kutempuh,

Meguji kesabaran batinku.

Salam Sayang buatmu yang sedang kusayang,

Kubisa menunggumu..namun hati ini berserah kepada Yang Maha Esa,

Penentu segala yang terbaik buatku,

Aku redha andai kau bukan milikku,

Kerana kutahu..dalam asmara ini akan ada yang terluka,

Ku tak bisa merubah waktu,

Untuk kita bertemu sebelum dirinya bertakhta dihatimu,

Salam Sayang buatmu yang sedang kusayang,

Aku hargai hadirmu mengisi segenap ruang dijiwaku,

Memutuskan segala kesilapanku yang lalu,

Mendewasakan jiwaku mengenal erti kasih,

Erti Kasih ini terlalu berat untuk kugendong kehilir,

Erti Kasih ini terlalu perit untuk kutelan andai ia tidak kesampaian,

Namun aku akan redha,

Demi iman kepada Yang Maha Esa.

Salam Sayang buatmu yang sedang kusayang,

Kumohon jutaan kemaafan darimu,

Andai kehadiranku ini menggugat istana cintamu terhadapnya,

Andai kehadiranku ini menggoncang api asmaramu terhadapnya,

Segala yang berlaku antara kau dan aku telah tertulis untuk menguji kesetiaan,

Segala yang berlaku antara kau dan aku telah tertulis untuk menguji kesabaran,

Segala yang berlaku antara kau dan aku telah tertulis untuk menguji keimanan,

Segala yang berlaku antara kau dan aku telah tertulis untuk menguji keikhlasan,

Kesetiaan..Kesabaran..Keimanan dan Keikhlasan dunia berkasih,

Redhalah Sayangku, andai inilah hakikat berkasih, redhalah.

Salam Sayang buatmu yang sedang kusayang,

Aku hanya seorang wanita berjiwa lembut bak bayu ditepian pantai,

Setelah sedikit masa yang berlalu, aku akur aku kasih padamu,

Seikhlas jiwaku tanpa bersulam panahan nafsu,

Namun kupinta, hargailah kata-katamu padaku,

Semadikan ia disudut hatimu,

Siramilah ia dengan kasih ikhlasmu,

Salam Sayang buatmu yang sedang kusayang.

Hasil Nukilan: Noor Aishah Bt. Jamaluddin 11:52 – 23/09/2006

Everything Is Gone..It's All So Over & Done! Though I Miss U So Much!

Wed, 29 Nov 2006 02:44:26 GMT

Dahulu kau mencintaiku
Dahulu kau menginginkanku
Meskipun takkan pernah ada jawabku
Tak berniat kau tinggalkan aku

Sekarang kau pergi menjauh
Sekarang kau tinggalkan aku
Disaat ku mulai mengharapkanmu
Dan ku mohon maafkan aku

Aku menyesal t'lah membuatmu menangis
Dan biarkan memilih yang lain
Tapi jangan pernah kau dustai takdirmu
Pasti itu terbaik untukmu

Janganlah lagi kau mengingatku kembali
Aku bukanlah untukmu
Meski ku memohon dan meminta hatimu
Jangan pernah tinggalkan dirinya untuk diriku

Meski kau memohon meminta hatiku
Jangan pernah tinggalkan dirinya
Untuk diriku

My SUPERB Weekend.

Thu, 17 Nov 2005 08:12:42 GMT

I went back home to Kajang last Friday (11-Nov-2005)..when I reached home, Bee was home waiting for me. Went up straight to Bee for a BEAR HUG..

We went down to Ibrahim for some meal. I was all hungry but had no appetite to eat. I drank. Bee ate.

Saturday..12-Nov-2005..

Went to watch Emily Rose with Kak Ija..we had the early birds price of RM6.00 per tix. The movie was OK..just OK..no climax to it..that's for sure!

Went back home at 2.30pm.Bee came back around .00pm. Bee brought a new carpet. No lunch on Saturday for we were preparing our stomach for the night.

At around 7.30pm, I received an SMS from Kak Ija (MY DEAR COUSIN) asking us (Me & Bee) out to Ibrahim for dinner. Bee agreed. Some people said that it will take ages for MY KAK IJA to cool off..that proved them all wrong! The three of us had a wonderful time at Ibrahim..especially seeing My Kak Ija & My Bee enjoying each others' company. We lepak at Ibrahim till 2.30am! Amazing! We had so many things to talk about..

Slept at 3.00am..zzZZZzzzZZZZZzzzzzz....

Sunday..13-Nov-2005..

We woke up at 8.30am to start the day together by buying breakfast at the makcik sombong..then, at 12noon, we cooked LUNCH together because Kak Ija was invited by Bee for lunch. Kak Ija reached at 1.30pm as promised. I was bathing so she chatted with Bee. Then, Bee bathed and all. We had unch at 2.00pm. Food cleaned!

We gelak²..lepak²..kutuk²..makan² together the three of us! Fun Time..STORY ALL REVEALED. Fun thing!!

At night, we (Me & Bee) went to the Mamak (Steven's Corner) at Pandan Indah to meet up with Bee's friends..Boy & Leya..and Leya's friends..Zack & Dina..lepak until bout 1am..yalah, Monday is still Monday and Bee is working on Mondays!!

Reached home, we changed, brushed our teeth and slept!

Monday..14-Nov-2005..

Got open house at Han's so, Bee came back after work, I ironed Bee's Shirt and we bathed, got dressed and left home after Maghrib..straight to Pandan Jaya..yesterday Pandan Indah!

Had Nasi Minyak..Chicken Sambal, Black Beef..Nasi Impit, Nasi KErabu..SUPERB. Lepak there..played with Bobot (Han's Cat) and went back home to Kajang at 2.30am! Bee so siow!!

That's about all.....

To Be Continued..

-it's weird how love treat us wild-

Wed, 26 Oct 2005 07:22:00 GMT

LOVE..It's such a wonderful thing to explore..surf and be in it. It makes you wiser and happier when the mood begins to shine.

LOVE..It can be sincere..it can be hard for the HEART to take. It can KILL the soul..bleed with never ending drip of blood.

LOVE..at start it's so sweet and loving..smells like ROSES..my favourite flower..

LOVE..can be so tarnishing..

I'm So Glad We Fought..It Made Us A Better Set Of LovingCouples..

Mon, 26 Sep 2005 08:47:40 GMT

Friday (23.09.2005)..I went back home to my paradise. Wanted to relax & watch Malaysian Idols II Grand Finals..Hoping that Nita would grab the title after Jac. I bathed and cool myself down. Had NOTHING for dinner coz I was too tired to grab those bites.

Bee came back home at I don't know what time. Couldn't give a damn at that very moment. Our relationship was rocking too hard at that time. I don't know how to say it here..when this woman suddenly "ter-hidup" again coz I put her DEAD..my relationship with Bee will face some real great wave. As though this woman umpana suatu bala sangat². How do I explain..forget it..

Then, the fight began when she questioned some stupid thinggie. Gosh! Get a life! Ask me better questions..not ones like these..it bores me!

The drama begans in full scripts! Till late 11 pm..we fell asleep in the hall. Together but apart and away!

Saturday..seems better..Things was on medication. Aromatheraphy was in full force. We started to understand the reason we fought!

Sunday..Super Sunday! We Made Up..We Make Up..We Stayed Up..We Layed Up!

Bee,

Me Amor..

The Sad Part Of Me..

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 05:18:44 GMT

I have a sad part of me,

The sad part is I am sometimes to concern of others that I put my soul in anger!

I care for others (but not what they think!!) too much,

Especially my FRIENDS!!

I don't want MY FRIENDS to be hurt, I don't want them to cry!

I want them all to be happy..

I want them all to be laughing in joy!

I put myself aside, MY IMPORTANCE ARE NOT MY PRIORITY,

I put my friends as my NUMEBR ONE!!

My 6th Year Anniversary..

Tue, 16 Aug 2005 05:54:16 GMT

Date: 17th August 2005

Time: 00:00 Hours

Location: Plaza Indah, Kajang.

Occasion: 6th Year Anniversary with My Bee.

Mood: LOVING

Today is the 16th of August 2005..and tomorrow is the 17th August 2005. Tomorrow is my 6th year anniversary with My Bee. It has been SIX YEARS OF UPS & DOWNS and WE'RE STILL TOGETHER because WE WERE MEANT TO BE.

I have poured my entire soul to My Bee. I Care!! I Serve!!

HAPPY 6TH YEAR ANNIVERSARY, BEE..

The Weekend Was Like....

Mon, 01 Aug 2005 08:53:17 GMT

SATURDAY : 30th JULY 2005

** 09:30 Hours - The Lorry man came to my house and collected my goods to MY NEW HOME in Kajang. I joined him on the lorry ride. 1st Time riden on a lorry and it was really fun!

** 10:45 Hours - Reached MY PALACE and unloaded the lorry.

** 14:15 Hours - Bee came home and we had a WONDERFUL TIME. I Love My Bee..I Love My Bee So Much!

We made a pledge not to let go of our realtionship..no matter what! We will sail together till the end of time! I love my Bee..and My Bee loves me!

** I am taking out a car soon**

1st - BOUGHT A HOME

2nd - BUY A CAR

My Weekend Was Really Sweet..

Mon, 25 Jul 2005 03:59:15 GMT

Friday 22nd July 2005

** At 18:00 Hours, I left the office and headed to Ampang Park LRT-Putra Station. Waited for Kak Ija there and we headed to Wangsa Maju to collect her stuffs! At 19:52 Hours..we pushed off in her Iswara to Kajang. Journey was OK. The man who is arranging my loan called while we were on the way to Kajang. He said within a week or two, everything will be settled. Alhamdulillah..

** We reached Kajang and Bee reached in time with us. We unloaded the cars together and headed to our heaven. After unloading..we were MORE than hungry. We were starving so the three of us walked to the nearby stall and had our dinner together. **B, I LOVE U**

** Bee left Kajang and headed back. I couldn't send Bee SMS that nite!! **WHERE ON EARTH IS MY BEE?** As far as I'm concerned, Maxis has great coverage unless you are at some JUNGLE area..full of hills..It's OK..I know where you were, SWEETHEART..

SATURDAY 23rd JULY 2005

** Woke Up early and got ready to meet the Mr. Loan Guy. Met him at Wisma Central and passed to him all the things that he needed. Had breakfast and bought loads of CHEESE for our tummy.

** Headed home to Kajang. Bee reached before me. Bee was home 1st. We had lunch together. I prepared lunch for my Bee. Then, we went to Petaling Jaya to buy our 29" Television Set, Sound System & DVD Player! All on Bee.

** Went back home to Kajang and reached around 19:10 Hours. Started cleaning the house and we were done at around 23:00 Hours. We bathed and we started our routine again!! **muax..muax**

SUNDAY 24th JULY 2005

** To Be Continued..

My Love For Myself & All That Surrounds Me..

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 01:40:57 GMT

**assalamualaikum** **good day**
It's been quite a while since I last updated my page over here. Bukan apa..I was quite tied up with my work load!! Haiyooo...Penat OK..
Well..I took my house keys dee. Gonna fix up the grills by this week..Insya Allah..in ONE WEEK it can be settled. Then..'ll be fixing up my lights (to be done by one of my technicians FOR FREE). By the end of July 2005, I'll be shifting in with my bee...SAYANG AWAK! RINDU AWAK!!
I'm waiting for my personal loan now **my orang kampung is gonna help me**..Insya Allah by the end of July 2005. The loan will be used for MY BEAUTY PARLOR..I wanna run my own business. This is a JV with my SOUL COUSIN.. **kakaija**
I'll bring my beauty parlor to the next level of success in 8 months of launching it! Insya Allah.
I don't wanna burden anyone on earth. I wanna be an asset, not a liability. That's MY QUOTE!!
Five years from now..**by 2010** I wanna buy another house. Landed property, Insya Allah.
Catch up for MORE updates on me later..**everybody want updates on me** Muahahahahaaa....

Khumaira..

Fri, 17 Jun 2005 06:14:36 GMT

I bought my own property at the age of 23. My own property. I'm happy and happy and happy and happy.

My salon should be UP by August 2005 and it is gonnabe so happeNING. Branching out by February 2006 to Putrajaya, perhaps!

I'm gonna make $$$$ work for me..not ME work for $$$$.

I LOVE BEING ME!!

My Saturday Blues..Without Bee..Darn...

Sat, 21 May 2005 02:45:36 GMT

Date: 21st May 2005
Evaluate My Life...
Darn CASH me! I'm not meeting MY BEE today..same old lay-man's reason..what to do? Haiyaaa! Nair mind..I'll still hang out. Saturday's I can't go home early. Wait got nothing to do..then I start being paranoid, how??
I Miss U, Melanie! I Miss U, LZ..
I actually thought of going back to Penang today with a friend but things could not turn out as planned! Anyway..Hmmm..~sigh~
To Kak Linda..congratulations..and jubilations..u delivered to a BABY BOY!! Anis has a BROTHER..
What is so wrong with me, huh?
**Akon - Lonely**
Lonely i'm so lonely,
I have nobody,
To call my own
I'm so lonely, i'm Ms. Lonely
I have nobody,
To call my own
I'm so lonely.

Awww...I Miss U, Bee..We WILL Make Things Right Together U and I..
We WILL destroy all EVIL SPIRITS around us! 143..

Touch Me..

Tue, 17 May 2005 04:30:32 GMT

Life..

Full of questions..without answer!

I carry a weight I can't cope with,

I Love You, Mummy!

You made me feel love..potray love!

You made ME the woman I am..

You made my soul delighted with joy..

I look out in the open, I see yourself in me..

I hear your voice telling me just what to do..

Just what to say..

I'm stronger everyday, Mummy..

I hope it's not too late for me to say that I LOVE YOU..

To say that I'm sorry for all the harsh words I said..

For all the pain things I did..

I Love You, Mummy..

I Love You!

I'm The ONE That Understands ME..

Thu, 05 May 2005 07:34:21 GMT

I've discovered that no one understands me except **GOD** obviously! The rest..no one does! I'm so happy on the outside..why? I hide my fears inside! I have dremas I don't tell. I have mission I don't spell. I have vision you can't see!
My love is blinded by the vision of dark clouds and horrible images from hell. I'd help my love to grow even if I have to wait another season to see it blossom. When the truth reveals, it's SHOW TIME!!
I don;t hate anyone..it makes you ugly!
I am a reserved person! I don't tell you who I am and what I want until I'm comfortable with you. I can see you through.
**This GIFTED CHILD is yours for keep**

DEAR DIARY..

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 05:23:33 GMT

Dear Diary,

I want my SOUL 2B @ ease @ each & everytime of the day. I want 2B loved and trusted..especially by the ones that I love and trust! I don't see the reason why must I be neglected? People can be so mean! Behaving like some damn shit animals!! They want recognition!

The person I chased off my life is back..I hate the fact but I shall screw her DEAD back to where she belongs! She ahs no right on me or anything that is mine! What is yours is yours..what is mine is mine!!

Don't even think about it!

My heart can cry at times of when I feel that what I say brings nothing but total zero-ness! What! Why!

I asked for HELP..now I got HELP..so I am gonna HELP..

Love,

Shasha

Why Suddenly Bee Becomes Like This..?

Mon, 25 Apr 2005 06:01:56 GMT

I received an SMS from My Bee this morning saying that I'm an Angel..why? Why on earth? Why suddenly? What is wrong with my Bee?

Someone tell me..!!

18th April 2005

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 02:43:15 GMT

My heart pumped! I could not breathe! I felt something weird. I know sumthing fishy is goin on..I'll find out!

The Love Of My Life..

Wed, 13 Apr 2005 05:57:55 GMT

What is LOVE? The LOVE of your life..? The LOVE of my life..?
::my god:: ::my self:: ::my family:: ::my mother:: ::my father:: ::my heroes:: ::my relatives:: ::my cousins:: ::my bee:: ::my khumaira:: ::my properties:: ::my soulmates:: ::my wealth:: ::my health:: ::my teddies:: ::my job:: ::my pride:: ::my anniversary:: ::my all:: ::my page::

The Letter..I Remember..The Statement Too..

Mon, 11 Apr 2005 03:14:08 GMT

I was in my bed last weekend, reading a magazine from Manchester my cousin bought for me when I suddenly remembered sumthing. The magazine was talking about "Bitch..Female Dog.."..
Once upon a time..as I was cleaning a room at a friend's place, I found a letter under the bed. A letter from a lady who likes My Bee.admires so dearly. I read the letter..it says..
"... I'd listen to your advice..I'd be with my parents..though I want to have you infront of my eyes each and everyday! How would my life be if you're not infront of my eyes..? We will always be secret lovers..."
The letter hit me straight into my heart and it burnt my soul.. When My Bee came home that day..I questioned the letter..and My Bee said..
"...that letter is NOTHING..it means NOTHING to me..eventhough she gave me that letter..saying stupid things like that, that DOESN'T mean that I have anything to do with her..she wants to say like that, that's her problem. I don't have feelings for her..it's just U and Me..no one else...Now take this letter, do anything you want with it. Throw It, OK..it doesn't mean a thing.."
My heart started pumping again! Since My Bee said those magic words in the witness of the Holy Book..I took it right. Then My Bee told me stories about that lady who gave My Bee the letter.
"...You don't have to worry about her. She is nothing to me..do you know that she is like a BITCH..she has affair with 2 people at ONE time..."
And so I remembered the story about the "Bitch..Female Dog.."
So Said..

Ain't Easy 2B Me~~

Thu, 07 Apr 2005 04:29:47 GMT

I don't understand why is so HARD for me 2 put the load of trust when falling IN LOVE!!

Can I Trust You..?

^eNeMy^

Thu, 07 Apr 2005 02:50:30 GMT

What is your opinion on ENEMY..? Do you have one..? I had ONE during my school days..in St. Mary's.. **no names mentioned** but that is a perfectly OLD STORY..If I bang into her anywhere now..I would brace her a hug! **hugz**
When I left St. Mary's after SPM, I pursued studies in MARA University of Technology, Shah Alam. While I was there, I didn't have any ENEMY..that's for sure! I don't know if anyone would have ME as their ENEMY.
About 2-3 Years ago, I did HATE someone..I considered her as an ENEMY but, I'm all grown up! I'm a young lady..and I don't think I need to have her as an ENEMY. A Total Waste Of Time!
What do U think of ENEMY..? Or ENEMIES..?
My point of view..ENEMY or ENEMIES..they can be your BEST FRIEND..your SOUL MATE but in some reasons..they FAILED to meet up to your expectations! For instance..if you want this man to be YOUR MAN..but he says.."We can ONLY be FRIENDS..". You'd HATE him on the spot, rite? He becomes your ENEMY, rite? **So SA!D**
As for TODAY..I have no enemies at all..unless you treat me as ONE! Why..? I can't fulfill your expectations..?

Eii..Why U So Like Dat One Eh..?

Thu, 07 Apr 2005 02:25:43 GMT

**good day**

**dream of this woman yesterday!**

**she has a kid and a few DOGS with her**

**IS SHE EVIL OR..?**

Purest Of Pain..

Fri, 01 Apr 2005 07:14:42 GMT

When the sun rises in the morning..I look around finding for the one I love..grab my mobile and there it is!

**aPRiL fOoL**

Let me lay some questions for you to ponder on..

1. What would you sacrifice for love?

2. Would you sacrifice your FAMILY for love?

3. If the ONE you love belongs to someone else, would you race in for a chance?

4. Would you give your BODY..have SEX..just to please someone..?

5. Would you neglect your FRIENDS..?

6. Would you be selfish?

7. What would you do?

Without Pure Love..

Fri, 01 Apr 2005 07:11:41 GMT

**aPRiL fOoL**

Hello & Hye To All..

Just some points to ponder..

How would you describe love? How PURE is PURE? How do you want to be LOVED? Are you being LOVED the way you want to be LOVED?

Think about it! It's really nice..what if the ONE you LOVE plays you out? Will there be a PAYBACK time?

If the ONE you love has an affair behind YOU..would you claim credit for it by having an affair behind HIM / HER..?

Sex..? Would you "GIVE" yourself to HIM / HER on the very few first moments..? Think harder..! Would you give it away just like that?

**just some thoughts to ponder**

Secret Lovers

Sat, 26 Mar 2005 04:47:44 GMT

Have U ever had a secret lover? Well it's nice to have one and feel them near and dear. Now U can feel the difference in affectionate ways. It all depends on the soul. If ur comfy..go ahead.
I'm attached but I keep thinking of someone else who was there for me at times of "tsunami". It's nice! The touches! Fine Wine!
But now..it tragically over and done!

^Life Without LOVE Is A Life Without SOUL^

Sat, 26 Mar 2005 04:40:06 GMT

Have you ever felt..waking up in the morning..loking out the window and all you see is darkness? The darkness that is NOT night but it's a kind of feeling u feel. The feeling of lost.

There's always an angel by U but..

I felt it a few times and it really hurts. It hurts so deep that even the tears does not clean the pain!

But NOW..

I'm stronger than yesterday! No one can ever change that!!