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January 17 aKaDeMi FaNTaSia SeaSon 5 - 2oo7Dated 14th January 2007, at 08:30 Hours I went to ASTRO, Bukit Jalil for the Akademi Fantasia season 5 audition. Not many people were there. Took the application form and filled it up.
At 09:00 Hours, the gate opened and we were asked to line up into ASTRO.
At around 10:30 Hours, it was almost my turn to be auditioned. The judges : Hajah Deja Moss and Adnan Abu Hassan (I'm honoured to have these 2 people as judges..so honoured)
I sang Kelly Clarkson's Because Of You..I never stray too far from the sidewalk..then, Hajah Deja Moss said.. "Lagu lain..lagu lain.."..and I sang The Carpenter's Top Of The World. She repeated the same line of "Lagu lain..lagu lain" and I did Aishah's Janji Manismu.
OK..GO TO STAGE 3 AA...
Waited till bout 16:30 Hours to smell stage 3.
Bob, not quite sure whom he is, they said it's Aida Aris's EX-HUSBAND..opppsss..said that me being 26 dah SENJA ok..what the hell? So if 26 is senja, what about their limit of 27 are? NIGHTS? And I believe he is Midnight!!! He said..I'd be better-off doing nightclubs than do AF..(i'm taking it positively - as in..I'm way-way too good to be in AF..)
Oh yaa..Ahmad Idham asked if I can immitate anyone..so I said I can immitate Ning but, I don't think it's appropriate! Then, I'll have no identity of my own!
Yelaahh..there can only be ONE NING. Not two or three..
My conclusion; WHEN AF SAYS THAT THEIR LIMIT IS 27, THEY'RE LYING....
January 08 SoMeThInG 2 LooK FoRWaRd To..It's the continuation of the last post..
I woke up on Sunday (7th January 2007) morning feeling very happy.
I have another mission to complete this 2007.
I'll start on this Sunday (14th January 2007) and work it all the way.
GooD LuCk To Me!! January 03 HaPpY 26tH BiRtHDaY 2 Me..Hey..WELCOMING 2007 altogether with my birthday..my 26th (getting old) Birthday. No! It wasn't a GRAND BIRTHDAY. It's was just me and my surroundings.
I wasn't feeling well on the 30th of December 2006..maybe it's because I'm changing age, that's why! I was awake all night throwing unnecessary "thing" from my stomach! In the morning, dooshed-off to the hospital for a check up. Doctor says I'm ok! With some medicines, I went home happily.
The entire 31st, I was all tired, and sleepy..and also SLEEPING for the medicine was a real LULLABY.
1st January 2007 : I turned 26 and am pround of it. The number DOESN'T really matter at all. I was all happy and recovered from the "LULLABY" and stuff.
My 2007 Resolutions: - COMPLETION OF 2006 RESOLUTIONS..HAHA..
a) I want to make WRITING as part of my venture!
b) I want to activate PASAK CAHAYA - not many knows about this!
c) I want to be close to HIM.
d) I want to make $$$$ work for me and NOT REALLY me work for $$$$.
e) I want to ...(the lists goes on...)...
To Be Continued.... December 20 Try Reading The Below....LAYAKKAH AKU MENJADI SEORANG PENULIS????Segala yang berlaku pada tika ini akan kusemadikan ia menjadi suatu kenangan disudut lubuk hatiku. Akan kukenang segalanya biar seperit mana. Aku pinta kepadamu maafkanlah kesilapanku, aku tahu kau dan aku tidak mungkin akan menyatu. Kau hanya sebuah kepulauan nan indah yang telah kusinggah dalam perjalanan hidup ini. Kau membuka sejuta rahsia kepadaku dan aku tahu, ia tidak semudah itu aku melupakanmu.
Andai, tersilap langkahku kelak, maafkanlah..hatiku ini tak bisa terubat hanya dengan ungkapan maaf dari mu. Aku bukanlah wanita yang kejam, namun aku punya hati dan perasaan, aku tak bisa kaburi jiwaku kerana perasaan yang kecewa ini. Kau telah membawaku pergi jauh dari kedukaan semalam. Setiap bicara manismu bagaikan selumbar bisa...kau tanam dijiwa, tak terlihat oleh pandangan mataku. Aku kesal dengan segala yang berlaku. Mungkin kau hanya mahu yang satu itu dariku..namun, pendirianku tetap berdiri disisiku. Andai aku hanyut dalam badai asmara cinta dongengmu, aku mungkin lebih parah. Segala yang telah kuberikan kepadamu datang dari hati ikhlasku. Setiap pelukan yang kuhadiahkan kepadamu ikhlas dari hatiku yang merinduimu..setiap kucupan yang kuhulurkan kepada bibirmu datang dari perasaan kasihku kepadamu..namun segalanya telah tiada lagi.. Aku pergi...seperti yang kau mahu, sayang..aku pergi.. Namun persinggahanku selama itu, adalah persinggahan yang terlalu istimewa bagiku.. ShoULd i TrUST yOu..?This is a story about TRUST.
If I TRUST you in and out, would you CHEAT on me?
Would you tell me you're with your FRIENDS when you're with another young lady having FUN?
Would you SLEEP next to me when you just got home after a HOT DATE?
Would you LIE to me? Would you LIE to me?
Can I ACCEPT you knowing that you've KISSED someone else?
Can I ACCEPT you knowing that you've LOVED someone else?
Can I ACCEPT you knowing that you've FANTASIZED someone else?
Can I ACCEPT you?
Should I ACCEPT you?
December 15 My Promise To You!I cannot promise you that
I will not change
I cannot promise you that
I will not have many different moods
I cannot promise you that
I will not hurt your feelings sometimes
I cannot promise you that
I will not be erratic
I cannot promise you that
I will always be strong
I cannot promise you that
my faults will not show
But
I do promise you that
I will always be supportive of you
I do promise you that
I will share all my thoughts
and feelings with you
I do promise you that
I will give you freedom to be yourself
I do promise you that
I will understand everything that you do
I do promise you that
I will be completely honest with you
I do promise you that
I will laugh and cry with you
I do promise you that
I will help you achieve all your goals
But
most of all
I do promise you that
I will love you December 13 What I Have To Say....I'm a big, big girl, in a big, big world. It's not a big, big thing, if you leave me, but I do, do feel, that I do, do will miss you much.
-Emilia-
Cinta "itu" kadang kala tak ada logika. Berisi semua hasrat dalam hati. Kuhanya ingin dapat memiliki dirimu hanya untuk sesaat. Bukannya aku tak tahu, kau sudah ada yang punya. Karena kau telah bisikan cintamu padaku, kutahu engkau berdusta.
-Agnes Monica-
Manusia beraneka ragam dan rupa. Ada yang jujur, ramai yang berpura-pura.
-Aishah-
Here we are, the two of us together. Taking this crazy chance to be all alone. We both know that we should not be together. Cause if they found out, it could mess up our "happy" homes....Secret Lovers, that's what we are, we shouldn't be together but we can't let go..oh no! cause we love each other so.
-Atlantic Stars-
Aku rindu kepadamu, Siang malamku. Bagai tak menentu. Oh Tuhanku, kabulkanlah..demi bahagia yang kudamba.
-Azharina-
Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry? Have you ever needed something so bad you can't sleep at night?
-Brandy-
Don't go, you know you'll break my heart. She won't love you like I will. I'm the one who'll stay, when she walks away and you know I'll be standing here still.
-Celine Dion-
I'll make love to you, like you want me to and I'll hold you tight. Baby, all through the night.
-Boys II Men-
Sekarang kau pergi menjauh. Sekarang kau tinggalkan aku. Disaat ku mulai mengharapkanmu dan kumohon maafkan aku....Janganlah lagi kau mengingatku kembali. Aku bukanlah untukmu. Meski kumemohon dan meminta hatimu, jangan pernah tinggalkan dirinya untuk diriku.
-Rossa-
Oh Tuhan, maafkan diriku telah melangkah lubuk memberi bimbang hatinya. Kutahu kau telah berdua..tak mungkin kurasa melepas kasih antara kita.
-Ruth Sahanaya-
Tak peduli kata orang terhadap dirinya. Aku tahu dia gadisku. Tak peduli nista yang terlempar padaku. Dia tahu dia gadisku.
-Search-
Diriku hanya insan biasa. Miliki naluri yang sama. Tak ingin berpaling, tak ingin berganti. Jiwaku sering saja berkata. Andai kumampu ulang semula. Kupasti tiada yang curiga. Kasih kan hadir, tiada terduga. Hanya yakin menunggu jawapan.
-Siti Nurhaliza-
Why does it hurt so bad? Why do I feel so sad? I thought I was over you but I keep crying when I don't love you! So why does it hurt so bad? I thought I had let you go. So why does it hurt me so? I gotta get you out of my head. It hurts so bad..oh it hurts so bad, baby.
-Whitney-
I want a man not a boy who thinks he can.
-Spice Girls-
You're no man, you're a chicken...CHICKEN SHIT!
-De AnGeL- -i fainted in the LRT-Last night I slept over at mummy's house.
This morning, mummy sent me to Terminal Putra, Putra LRT.
Wangsa Maju Station heading towards Setiawangsa Station....
Jeng..Jeng...Jeng....I suddenly could not hear anything, my head became a little bit to warm, I felt pale all over, I fell on the bunch of people in the LRT. I was not hurt because there were too many people to land on.
I pray hard that it will never happen again..
December 04 Perginya Seorang Yang Kusayangi..As usual, right after work @ 5pm, I shoot straight to home via Putra & Star LRT. Adik picked me up at Star Sg. Besi station. We were both dying of hunger so we decided to fill-up! We went to the geraiz at the back of Courts Mammoth. I ordered my Kung Fu Mee Hoon and so did she. As I was waiting for the food to come, "Maxis" sent me an SMS stating that my abah called me 5 times! Owh-No..so I returned the call. To my surprised...
Pakcik Mydin pass away!
 Innalillahi Wainnaillahirrajiun..I couldn't go back to Penang coz I was stuck in Kajang! I was so sad that I teared. I couldn't eat at all. I could not believe my ears! I could not believe that my uncle has passed away.I was really wanting to go back to Penang knowing that the funeral would only be the day after (Saturday after Dzohor prayers) but, thinking of the rush, I stayed back. I was so so so so sad.
I sedekah Yassin to arwah Pakcik Mydin after Maghrib prayers and while reciting it too, I teared. I was so sad!
Ya Allah, Ya Tuhanku, Kau ampunilah segala dosa² serta kealpaan Pakcik Mydinku, Ya Allah..Kau tempatkanlah dia bersama² orang² yang kau cintai, Ya Allah..AMIN..
November 29 SaLaM SayaNg BuaTMu YaNg SeDaNg KuSaYaNg..I wrote this "sajak" on the 23rd of September 2006. I was so deep in ... at that moment. Everything was so hot.
Salam Sayang buatmu yang sedang kusayang,
Dikala ini terasa kosong jiwa tanpa hadirnya dirimu disisi,
Aku merindui bualan asmara kala naluri merindui,
Keluhan keringat sakti meronta dijiwa sanubari,
Aku tahu aku siapa,
Aku tahu kau siapa..kau yang bergelar apa..
Aku pasrah, aku akur..
Segala yang mendatang ini suatu ujian yang harus kutempuh,
Meguji kesabaran batinku.
Salam Sayang buatmu yang sedang kusayang,
Kubisa menunggumu..namun hati ini berserah kepada Yang Maha Esa,
Penentu segala yang terbaik buatku,
Aku redha andai kau bukan milikku,
Kerana kutahu..dalam asmara ini akan ada yang terluka,
Ku tak bisa merubah waktu,
Untuk kita bertemu sebelum dirinya bertakhta dihatimu,
Salam Sayang buatmu yang sedang kusayang,
Aku hargai hadirmu mengisi segenap ruang dijiwaku,
Memutuskan segala kesilapanku yang lalu,
Mendewasakan jiwaku mengenal erti kasih,
Erti Kasih ini terlalu berat untuk kugendong kehilir,
Erti Kasih ini terlalu perit untuk kutelan andai ia tidak kesampaian,
Namun aku akan redha,
Demi iman kepada Yang Maha Esa.
Salam Sayang buatmu yang sedang kusayang,
Kumohon jutaan kemaafan darimu,
Andai kehadiranku ini menggugat istana cintamu terhadapnya,
Andai kehadiranku ini menggoncang api asmaramu terhadapnya,
Segala yang berlaku antara kau dan aku telah tertulis untuk menguji kesetiaan,
Segala yang berlaku antara kau dan aku telah tertulis untuk menguji kesabaran,
Segala yang berlaku antara kau dan aku telah tertulis untuk menguji keimanan,
Segala yang berlaku antara kau dan aku telah tertulis untuk menguji keikhlasan,
Kesetiaan..Kesabaran..Keimanan dan Keikhlasan dunia berkasih,
Redhalah Sayangku, andai inilah hakikat berkasih, redhalah.
Salam Sayang buatmu yang sedang kusayang,
Aku hanya seorang wanita berjiwa lembut bak bayu ditepian pantai,
Setelah sedikit masa yang berlalu, aku akur aku kasih padamu,
Seikhlas jiwaku tanpa bersulam panahan nafsu,
Namun kupinta, hargailah kata-katamu padaku,
Semadikan ia disudut hatimu,
Siramilah ia dengan kasih ikhlasmu,
Salam Sayang buatmu yang sedang kusayang.
Hasil Nukilan: Noor Aishah Bt. Jamaluddin 11:52 – 23/09/2006 Torn & GoneIt isn't easy being me,
I walk my way to loving you,
And liking you,
I tore my heart in two.
You told me how to love you because I wasn't sure,
I wasn't sure if what I was doing was right..or wrong?
Or..is it right to be wrong?
You brought me to a place I've never been before,
You made me feel how it is to fall in love..head over heels,
I don't blame you when I have sleepless nights thinking of you,
I don't blame you when I go lost thinking of you.
Didn't we almost have it all?
The nights we had that took us places,
The love you felt came flowing off from me to your heart,
All the secret moments,
Just for you and me to be together,
Even for just a while.
It went in shame,
In shame of our love,
Our love to complete,
Complete two souls,
Two souls who were in love.
Author: NAJ
Location: Heart Paradise Everything Is Gone..It's All So Over & Done! Though I Miss U So Much!Dahulu kau mencintaiku August 28 Something About My Heart...Ya Allah...
Aku bersyukur kepada-Mu kerana telah mengkabulkan doa ku selama ini..walaupun doa ku itu kupohon bertahun lamanya..akhirnya Kau buka pintu hatinya juga.. August 09 I Shan't Forgive You..When a person is blinded by the ashes & breeze of the evil spirit..all blacks can turn into white petals of roses!! The magic wont work on me!
When a person whose heart is filled with anger & darknest of the night..all souls can't rest in peace!! The magic wont work on me!
When a person does not believe in the GOD that creates..all of the sweetness they carry turns into a big disaster!! The magic wont work on me!
And...when a person is borne into this world with a satan engraved in the heart..it's entire self will never be liked by me!! The magic wont work on me! July 07 The Pain In Me..I'm in deep pain for the past whole month..I was suffering so hard and risking my life to live for yet another day!
Listen Up! If there's something that you're not satisfied with me..say it to me..not use your evil powers to have me demolished! Remember..I have my ALLAH..and my ALLAH will save me!!
And for those of you who turns it into a LAUGHING MATTER..may GOD "bless" you..Good Luck!!
Parents! Please educate your children! They all sound so stupid and rude!
To Whom It May Concern! DO TAKE NOTE!!!! April 03 Whom Are Friends..And Whom Are Not..??I did some makan² over at my home in Kajang last Saturday (1st Aprill 2006)..Basically, myself & Bee invited most of our FRIENDS..but, we consider the ones that came are our TRUE FRIENDS.
Thank you and have a nice day.. March 04 :: whatz over is over ::I know how sometime people tend to envy you so they start to "comment" you on every single thing! They just can't see you happy at all. They wanna take your happinest away from you so that you'll look as horrible as they are!
I don't care..all I care is myself..!! I don't wanna pay attention to stupidazz people like them! They are just a waste of time! Nuisance..melayu cakap..buat semak jer!
Muahahahahaaa.... February 18 I'm Happy As I Settle Down..I went "somewhere" last friday for lunch. Suddenly I had the vibe that the place has no more colours like before! It's quite sad to understand why..but, after analyzing..I now know why..
Muahahahahahaaa!!!!!!!!!! November 17 My SUPERB Weekend.I went back home to Kajang last Friday (11-Nov-2005)..when I reached home, Bee was home waiting for me. Went up straight to Bee for a BEAR HUG..
We went down to Ibrahim for some meal. I was all hungry but had no appetite to eat. I drank. Bee ate.
Saturday..12-Nov-2005..
Went to watch Emily Rose with Kak Ija..we had the early birds price of RM6.00 per tix. The movie was OK..just OK..no climax to it..that's for sure!
Went back home at 2.30pm.Bee came back around .00pm. Bee brought a new carpet. No lunch on Saturday for we were preparing our stomach for the night.
At around 7.30pm, I received an SMS from Kak Ija (MY DEAR COUSIN) asking us (Me & Bee) out to Ibrahim for dinner. Bee agreed. Some people said that it will take ages for MY KAK IJA to cool off..that proved them all wrong! The three of us had a wonderful time at Ibrahim..especially seeing My Kak Ija & My Bee enjoying each others' company. We lepak at Ibrahim till 2.30am! Amazing! We had so many things to talk about..
Slept at 3.00am..zzZZZzzzZZZZZzzzzzz....
Sunday..13-Nov-2005..
We woke up at 8.30am to start the day together by buying breakfast at the makcik sombong..then, at 12noon, we cooked LUNCH together because Kak Ija was invited by Bee for lunch. Kak Ija reached at 1.30pm as promised. I was bathing so she chatted with Bee. Then, Bee bathed and all. We had unch at 2.00pm. Food cleaned!
We gelak²..lepak²..kutuk²..makan² together the three of us! Fun Time..STORY ALL REVEALED. Fun thing!!
At night, we (Me & Bee) went to the Mamak (Steven's Corner) at Pandan Indah to meet up with Bee's friends..Boy & Leya..and Leya's friends..Zack & Dina..lepak until bout 1am..yalah, Monday is still Monday and Bee is working on Mondays!!
Reached home, we changed, brushed our teeth and slept!
Monday..14-Nov-2005..
Got open house at Han's so, Bee came back after work, I ironed Bee's Shirt and we bathed, got dressed and left home after Maghrib..straight to Pandan Jaya..yesterday Pandan Indah!
Had Nasi Minyak..Chicken Sambal, Black Beef..Nasi Impit, Nasi KErabu..SUPERB. Lepak there..played with Bobot (Han's Cat) and went back home to Kajang at 2.30am! Bee so siow!!
That's about all.....
To Be Continued.. November 10 It's All About Raya 2005 In Penang..Aidiltri 2005..
1st Raya..
Morning..woke up quite late..had my bath..got dressed up in last 4 years baju kurung (no one is there to question what..). Then, when Abah came back from the mosque after the Aidilfitri Prayers..kan kusujud dikakimu..kupohon restu..then..I beraya with Mommy and me brothers...**sob**sob**
Next..I beraya with Aunty Rosnah..Aunty Ida..Pak Am..Pak Man..All My Cousins..Then I went to Tok Chik's house and beraya with all of them over there..
Lunch..at Han's house..sikit punyelah sedap OK..lepak there untill bout 4pm because it was raining so heavily..sit down there and gossip laa..
Nite..we all went of to Makcik Nab's house for a wonderfullllll feast..beat the other years!! Farisha is a big girl now..so damn cute.heartthrobe!
2nd Raya..
Morning..did not wake up late OK..had my bath and started the day with a little breakfast..LUNCH was fantastic! Aunty Rosnah is a PERFECT COOK laaa I tell you.
Nite..we all drove off to Kak Ju's house in..(Opps..I can't remember..) ate Laksa over there and went back to Sungai Pinang at around 12 midnite I guess.
3rd Raya..
To Be Continued.. October 30 Pudar By Rossa..Pudar - Rossa kurasakan pudar dalam hatiku setan dalam hati ikut bicara reff: mestinya kau cari pengganti diriku saja maafkan aku jika kau kecewa repeat reff kurasakan pudar dalam hatiku setan dalam hati ikut bicara
I REALLY LOVE THIS SONG..IT REMINDS ME OF ME.. October 26 -it's weird how love treat us wild-LOVE..It's such a wonderful thing to explore..surf and be in it. It makes you wiser and happier when the mood begins to shine.
LOVE..It can be sincere..it can be hard for the HEART to take. It can KILL the soul..bleed with never ending drip of blood.
LOVE..at start it's so sweet and loving..smells like ROSES..my favourite flower..
LOVE..can be so tarnishing.. September 26 I'm So Glad We Fought..It Made Us A Better Set Of LovingCouples..Friday (23.09.2005)..I went back home to my paradise. Wanted to relax & watch Malaysian Idols II Grand Finals..Hoping that Nita would grab the title after Jac. I bathed and cool myself down. Had NOTHING for dinner coz I was too tired to grab those bites.
Bee came back home at I don't know what time. Couldn't give a damn at that very moment. Our relationship was rocking too hard at that time. I don't know how to say it here..when this woman suddenly "ter-hidup" again coz I put her DEAD..my relationship with Bee will face some real great wave. As though this woman umpana suatu bala sangat². How do I explain..forget it..
Then, the fight began when she questioned some stupid thinggie. Gosh! Get a life! Ask me better questions..not ones like these..it bores me!
The drama begans in full scripts! Till late 11 pm..we fell asleep in the hall. Together but apart and away!
Saturday..seems better..Things was on medication. Aromatheraphy was in full force. We started to understand the reason we fought!
Sunday..Super Sunday! We Made Up..We Make Up..We Stayed Up..We Layed Up!
Bee,
Me Amor.. September 20 Tengah Ganti Puasa..Assalamualaikum To All..
Ramadhan is just around the corner and I have decided to ganti my last year's puasa. So today, I am fasting. Straight till Friday.
Hope I can tahan till evening..till maghrib I mean.. September 05 The State Of Being Lonely..All Alone!!I sometimes feel lonely,
When I cuddle my soul in my bed,
With no one by my side, Keeping me warm,
All day and All night..
I gaze at the sky thru the hole at my window,
I smile knowing that I'm alilve,
Knowing that I'm being loved,
Knowing that I'm breathing,
Knowing that I love someone,
Knowing that I'm still around.
I walk to my mirror,
Mirror..Mirror on the wall, Who is the luckiest of them all?
YOU ARE THE LUCKIEST OF THEM ALL..
Now I'm happier!
I snuggle up my bed again,
Realizing that I am all alone,
Lonely on my bed..
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